Letter to the my girls

My wish for you girls is that you know more than anything I love you and that you are my world. I was told a long time ago that I would never have any children and I have been blessed by god to have children and every moment I realize how blessed I am . Watching you grow from babes to ladies has and is a pleasure . I can only hope that God will bless me to watch you grow into women and see you marry if you want and have kids if you wish . I dream you will have anything and everything you need and some of your desires and that that your lives are filled with joy and not too much pain. I want to see you enjoy life but for you to know how blessed you are as well. I am so proud each and everyday for everything you do and when you fall that you get up dust off and try again . I am grateful for the life that I have and the life I am leading and getting the pleasure of raising you . I know daddy loves you more than anyone or anything in this life and that he is afraid that you do not know it enough and that something might happen to him . He has written letters to each of you in the possibility that something happens but I want to tell you that he loves you more than life itself and would die for you in a second and that you have soften his heart more than you will ever know and for that I am grateful . You made mommy and daddy better people and we are so happy to be you parents and honored that god chose us to be your parents . It is not always easy but its worth every second or all the tears and frustration and lost sleep . You are the most important part of our lives and we are extremely blessed .

I sit here writing knowing how blessed I am as I gaze into my child's eyes today. All three of my children and know that I am truly blessed . I never thought a blog could affect my life so but it has .I pray that Maddie's mom and Dad can find peace . I will remember Maddie she has taught me to be thankful for everyday that I have and to appreciate my kids and my life and to hug my kids and squeeze them tight everyday because you are not promised the next second of this day or the next breathe you or your love ones take . If I were to die today I would die knowing that all my children know that they are loved and that if anything bad were to happen to my girls I know that they would go to heaven knowing that I love them and would see them soon. That and my faith in God and my knowing that I am going to Heaven are what matters most to me .I have made it my goal to walk through life loving those who truly love me and giving them my best self . This is how I choose to honor God and the memory of a little girl I never knew or met but that touched my heart and changed my life . I always loved my children but I hold onto them stronger and hug them longer and say I love them more and more because you never know what may happen . Cannot wait to met Maddie in heaven and tell her thank you but I know she hears my words to her everyday . I am sure she is playing in heaven and smiling down on everyone .

Evelynn and Carlie and Wendy

Evelynn now has four teeth and counting lol . Carlie is now taller than Ben lol he is the one that mentioned it lol. Wendy is taking on more at home and becoming a little lady and the whining has all but gone away of course every now and again but one reminder and she stops . I am a very blessed woman blessed with all the people in my life. My older girls are making ab honor roll and have been for several years . They have always done chores but now they are doing more and are earning an allowances . It is so cool to see them grow and learn . Evelynn is so neat to watch her grow and see how the girls watch with wonder they are so wonderful with her . Help her and try to entertain her .Their fav. thing to do it to put on plays for her with talking animals which they use their stuff animals its really cute .

Happy Days and thoughts on things

Loving spending time with my family and just relaxing .I am so blessed for all God has given to me and knowing that with all his blessings I give him the glory . Wishing I could go see my friend Vanessa . She told me she will be coming down here soon and we are going to go hang out . Love spending time with old friends and catching up on everything . I know so many friends from high school that serve our country and I pray that they all come home safe and sound . Cannot wait to see the girls and how much they have grown pictures do not do it justice . Cannot wait to have some time to just relax and reflect on the things.

Spending alot of time with my best friends. You know you are really good when they give you crap and its okay because it comes from the heart and not out of them being mean or cruel . If you disagree on something it does not cost you the friendship . That is a true friendship and that I am thankful for . Sometimes it may hurt my feelings a little but I can go through it .Its the people who say things to hurt you or spite you or try to start shit that are the problem . They say it for the wrong reasons . It comes from the wrong place and it does matter why you say things and how you say them . If I tell someone something they may not want to hear but I tell them with good intentions and I am trying to help them and not start stuff or hurt their feelings or cause problems then that is cool . I have some truly amazing people in my life . There are quite a few really great people in my life . They are the ones who call for no reason just to see how your day is going. They are the ones who are always there . The ones there through the years and even if you have an issue you always come back together in friendship .I am one lucky and blessed woman and so is my family .

Letter to the world

I have come to realize that some people do not get that for me its always been hard to not think if people understand or get me but you know what I am so tired and tired of the stress it brings . I have come to the point of this. If you don't like who I am you are the one missing out. I go out of my way to help others whether family, friends, or strangers so I know I am good. I do not need to prove it to anyone . I will not get to heaven through good works but that does not mean that I will stop doing my best to help others it is what I do . Will I always second guess and think in the back of my head what others think . Yeah most likely but you know what I am better for it . I know the world does not revolve me I never said it did . I do care what others think because sometimes it keeps me in check from doing things that I might regret later like saying things I should not or doing things I should never do . I will refrain from voicing my fears at my own choosing . My life is filled with blessings and I am grateful for the things and people I have . I have alot of good friends and wonderful kids and family . I have some good acquaintances and that is all good too . The haters can hate if they want to waste their breathe and time . I am done trying to please everyone its not possible . Too busy to fill it with nonsense and worrying about other people . Oh and this is not aimed at anyone its a letter to world with my thoughts and intentions .