The thoughts running through my head are crazy right now. Its a busy time of year filled with family and friends . I really do not want to have surgery on my hubby's birthday but such is life . It could be worse than on his birthday it sucks I have to have it at all . Wow I went in for a checkup and was told that I needed surgery I know I was in pain all the time . I really do not want to give up the choice to have more kids but I have three beautiful girls and they are each a blessing. I hate I will not be able to have anymore kids but I was blessed to have any and three are just beyond what I could have ever hoped for . I am praying that they do not have to take my ovaries out but health is what is more important . Carlie turns 11 on the 8th of January seems like just yesterday my baby girl Carlie was born and now I have three kiddos loving me and driving me up the walls . Just kidding love them more than anything :) . I am surrounded by love and for me that is awesome coming from where I did . Time to move onto the next chapter and becoming a new better me for the awesome new year , God Bless to everyone
