Feel sick yet again so bad the girls had a sleep over last night having an okay day I want to go back to sleep but I know if I do that means that I will sleep a whole lot . My biggest fear is being a failure in lofe as a mom , wife christan and all around human being I don't feel good enough at all what have I really accomplished so far if I died tonight would I look back and think I did it right honestly no I would not I want and need to do better just don't know where to start . I have my kids and my hubby and family is important but who am I . I feel like I jump to conclusions to fast and sometimes I am too nice to people who deserve little or no respect from me . I want to do more be more and set an good example to my kids I know they know about Jesus to a point but I feel like I am slowly slipping away from what used to be me where did I go was I ever really there or have always just slided into a part to play to protect myself sometimes I get scared because in some parts I know this to be true endless ramblings of a confused but content woman .
